FYI, this is not an entry about makeup.
One of the items in my New Year's resolution list is to blog more. Deciding where to blog was quite difficult. I maintain 4 blogs but I usually blog in Multiply until I gradually and then suddenly got lazy to write. My 2010 will be amazing and very challenging. So, I need to go back to writing as a stress reliever.
On the first quarter of 2009, I was dead sure of quitting my job and continue my masters degree in New York by hook or by crook. Everything was good in theory. My 2009 was planned beautifully. But of course, something else happened. Something always happens. I didn't meet the deadline for NYU cos I still lacked some supporting documents. My first Friday of the year was spent in Embassy and Cuisine. I started drinking again every weekend. In February, he stopped making his presence felt. I spent Valentine's Day with the Gabriels and we drank the night away in Bugsy's. I was more than wasted. It was a miracle how I got home. It was a miracle how I got to school at 8am and absorbed everything the prof was teaching. Never will I ever drink Bacardi 151 again. In March, we moved to BGC from TEC and ironically, I didn't give an F like I thought I would. I was wasted one Friday night and met someone who I thought was the man I was asking for. I went to school wasted and hung over, didn't take a shower, and took my midterms exam. I kept going out of the classroom every 5mins to throw up. I aced my midterms, mind you. And I only realised all of these after almost a week. Oh, what inebriation could do to you, to me.
candid photo when everything was good in theory
Valentine's day with my "date" haha
the very inebriated Friday
On the second quarter of 2009, I still wanted to quit my job. I thought that my job was leading me nowhere (I still do). I booked flights to CamSur, Bangkok, and LA. April was my birthday month. I was drinking every week - going home at 4am and leaving at 6am for work. I was like a zombie. I had more alcohol intake than food and it's one of the worst feelings ever. My friend, V, can attest to this. She witnessed all. Well, almost. My boyfriend and I started talking. Things started to mellow down. Of course, I was still drinking. Then came May. Of summer outings and being officially off the market. I had to change my plans again. But I still wanted to resign. June came and we were off to CamSur. I loved this trip to bits but I hated with passion the tan it gave me. The last Friday of June was spent with officemates from our previous dept. It was like a reunion since those who resigned were present, too. I missed those TEC days and all that drama.
island hopping at Caramoan
Happy Together reunion at Hai
On the third quarter of 2009, I finally left the country and didn't wanna come back. But of course, I came back and missed the flight to LA. Stooge much. My closest friend in the office left me and transferred to a different department. I felt like a part of me was taken away. I felt cheated on. But I got over it. Nothing much happened afterwards. I still wanted to quit my job.
The last quarter of 2009 was spent trying to quit my job by applying to other depts in the company I'm working for. I admit that one of the main reasons why I'm staying in the company is because my beau is my officemate. He never asked me not to resign. It was my choice. HRD announced that we will soon be transferring to Alabang. All the more that I loathed my job. But I was hopeful with the internal vacancies. November came and the boyfriend and I went to Davao because I've never been.. We were also trying to fix our relationship. In December, I decided to complete 9 mornings. I wanted to. I needed to. December was very hectic for me. I had interviews with VPs and SVPs every week, twice a week. I was more than hopeful. I knew I was gon get the post. So imagine my dismay when I found out that my officemate got the post that I wanted the most out of all the internal vacancies. I was already planning and mapping out how I'm quitting my job in 2010. I was even consulting the boyfriend about it.
Then came the 51st week of 2009.
I remember it so vividly. I was outside Krispy Kreme surfing the net while waiting for the boyfriend who was buying doughnuts. My cellphone rang. It was an unidentified number. I wasn't sure if I was gon answer it because I just hate answering phone calls from numbers that aren't in my phone book. But I answered it anyway. On the other line was the VP that interviewed me for the position that I was really vying for (which by the way was already filled in by my officemate). She wanted me to go to their office tomorrow for a second interview. This really confused me because the position was just recently filled in and there weren't any vacancies for the same position that was announced by HRD. So, the next day, I went straight to their office for my second interview. It wasn't any interview. It was a panel interview. I could've died out of nervousness. It lasted for an hour and my heart was still beating fast on my way back to BGC. They said they would get back to me since they were still considering 2 persons for the position. That same afternoon, the VP from our dept together with my line manager came up to me with a big smile. She said, "Congratulations, PBO (personal banking officer) ka na!" I was in shock until I realised that the 3 of us were jumping out of joy. I was beyond happy and I didn't know how/what to react about the good news. It was what I wanted. It was what I needed. For the past weeks, I've been questioning how I got the position or if I'm even qualified. I know some of the people who applied and stats wise, they're more qualified than me. But it had to be me. My friend told me to stop questioning it. I just have to look at it as a blessing. That's what I'm doing now. We ended the night by having dinner at Jozu Kin and a few drinks at Rue Bourbon.
we all looked haggard haha
So what have I learned? Well, you can't plan everything and expect it to go smoothly as planned. Of course I already know it firsthand but sometimes you just can't help planning your future. All the good things that happened to me wasn't how I planned it. If you were to ask me a year ago what I would be doing now, I'd tell you that I'm probably brewing coffee right now at Dean & Deluca. I'm not in NYU right now for further studies. I'm with a different man. I'm a full-time employee. I didn't ask for these three things. I asked for the opposite. But you know what? I'm very happy where I am right now.
So for 2010, I won't be making plans. I'll go with the flow and see where it leads me. But of course, I still have to plan how I'll be hitting my targets this year - but this has a story of its own.
It's only 6 January but I'm already embracing the year tight.
This is definitely my year.